My Heart Aches for Her.

I was originally going to be very blunt and out of character in this post but I stopped myself and regained my composure.... This blog has been with me through a lot... Good times and bad. Every human being has their errors in life. I've had my fair share. I've always been a person to live without regret but now I'm starting to. My daughter deserves so much better... I met a person once who intrigued me in such a manor I couldn't help myself but to go along for the bumpy ride... Now... I know the truth... That persons negativity will not effect MY daughter. I will be her mother... And her father.

Haunting

I feel as though I've made plenty of decisions in my life that if executed differently I would be in a much better place right now... But I try to live optimistic and without regret. 

I question is loving too much, too hard, and too easily.... A bad thing? The bible says we're supposed to love unconditionally... But I just feel as though I put my heart on the line way too much. I can't tell you how sick I am of being hurt... And how my dreams and thoughts are haunted by these scars of my past. I feel as though that's one of my main stresses.... Not being able to forget the pain or at least mask myself from it. 

Perfection

My life has been so stressful the last few months.. But I'm determined for 2014 to be great for my daughter and I. I feel like I just have to (in a mature manor) accept the fact that my expectations for a perfect, happy life are just too high or not in this chapter. I think I just need to relax but at the same time, work to get out of this stuck place where I feel I am. I need motivation but I also need a break from just all the stress that's on my back day in and day out. My child is my focus, my love, my world, I want the best for us. I need the best for us. I'm not going to speak on my love life in this post. I'm not focused on it at this point. Relationships are irrelevant to me right now. No time or patience for what comes along with it (usually more bad than good).