I want so much out of life, I feel like my life alone has so much potential and I'm just wasting it in so many ways. It's frustrating and exhausting. It's hard to get yourself where you want to be in life with an emotional disorder. It's like any sickness, and that's something most people don't understand. Being depressed is almost like being handicapped, I just constantly feel limited. I aspire to become better, for myself and my daughter. It's just stressful, I'm back to feeling like I did in high school, there's people around me but I'm still so lonely.
I feel as though, I get into situations and just lose myself and can't make choices that I know are right or better for me, and then I just end up stressed and shutting down. I feel like I hardly smile anymore, the only time I'm happy is when I'm with my daughter.
