So, I've been on edge lately, practically killing myself with stress. Lashing out & just worrying myself way too much. So when I took my shower today, as corny as it may sound, I asked God for guidance and answers. And I swear what I need for myself seems so clear now.
Words of Wisdom children, if you want things to change in your life you have to do some changing yourself. I realize that now, and I'm in the midst of making some moves.
May peace be with you all.
Its the worst when you don't know what's going on in your own life. When you're so stressed from pain your stomach hurts. When you've cried so much you can't cry anymore. I'll never understand why we have times like this & why they have to hurt so bad and confuse so much & then more & more factors are added which make it worse because you're starting to see reality versus the picture you painted in your head. I keep thinking over and over what will I say when the time approaches and I still don't know. I haven't been this emotionally drained in so long, so many thoughts, so many feelings. Its the worst when you're emotional pain turns to physical. To make matters worse no therapy til next week, who do I even talk to about these things in depth since my best friend won't talk to me. Its not fun being alone.
I've been slacking but lifes been hectic. My babys back living here and we've been making up for lost time, all the lovins been amazing. With that, we're getting started in business together. You know, my view on life has always been Money is necessary but not what runs life. Even though in a way it does, I try not to be "money hungry" and stuck on a materialistic mindset. But I do have goals and I believe that goals drive people to do things and to be more successful. That & seeing people around you making moves when you're just sitting on the couch watching 16 & Pregnant. Get up and make something of yourself kids.
