Out of Pocket..

I had a moment today where I had to really look back and ask myself... "Am I changing who I am to benefit another person?" And "If I do betray my own character... Will I benefit or suffer from it in the end?" Advice to people everywhere, you were made the way you were for a reason, God put us here with stories pre-written... Why give up your fairy tale ending, for somebody that could possibly only be there for one chapter?

Seasons...

I can't help but notice myself changing in so many ways. My wants are different, my needs are different, as well as my thoughts & feelings. I've always been told I'm mature, but I feel as though now, I'm realizing it for myself. I handle my situations differently, I execute my actions differently. And the biggest change of all of course falls in the category of love. My interests & attractions have done a complete flip & I'm trying to grasp on to it & understand what exactly this is. My new "leading man" is someone I would never imagine to look at the way I do, but it's ohkay. The lack of commitment & rules makes it for an even better set up, obviously for the reason being I've never had such a situation. He keeps me on my toes as well as boggles my mind on a regular.. The smell of cigarettes & liquor which would normally be revolting, has become that of roses. He's a game changer, so far a good one. I'm taking control of me and what I want and I'm happy about it, haven't heard from ex in a while, & at times I'd like to hear his voice but I know now, things are better this way. I'm growing this way.