Sigh

I feel as though I have so much on my mind yet, no words to turn the thoughts in to. At the end of the day, all I can think about is pros & cons of having a huge heart. I get so caught up in somebody and try so hard to show them I care, only to get stomped on in return. I get hurt over and over and yet still "chase" & "pursue" just because my feelings are so strong and I don't know what else to do because fear of letting go and hurting even more. I try to focus on other things other friendships & relationships, but what good does that do when you're in so deep?