I was up until about 6am last night, due to my thoughts practically ripping me to shreds. Such a horrible state to be in, chemicals in your brain not cooperating and producing images and words that shouldn't even be a factor. I'm thankful that sleep washed away most of the pain that it was causing and I'm happy to announce I'm able to finish therapy like I intended.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Babycakes & Motivation
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
The Universe Is Back In Order Captain
Saturday, October 15, 2011
I Don't Have A Title
A few years ago I made a list of all the things I didn't like about myself. I hit high double digits and the list has done nothing but grown.
Now Playing: Please Don't Play This Song by Kid Cudi Featuring Mary J. Blige
Goodnight.
Friday, October 14, 2011
Sigh....
In my opinion, one of the worst feelings in life is the feeling right after you've caused a big ordeal thinking you're so right the whole time only to find out you were completely wrong and you now look like the biggest idiot. I might have ruined my only opportunity at happiness last night and I wake up this morning filled with regret.
I send thanks to my good friend who talked through things with me last night. If it wasn't for you, I'd still be on my high horse pointing fingers right now. But you snapped me out the nightmare that I had formed in my head out of insanity. After being brought back to earth on a realist's & logical level, my only fear is that even though now my mind is on the right path, it might be too late.
I've spent all of this time praying that God will help me through this and that this will end up like every other time and we'll move on from it. But how can I tell?
Thinking about it I feel that maybe I'm just doing the same thing I was doing last night assuming before I even talk to you. You told me we'd talk today, so I'm waiting by the phone.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Thank You
His interest & belief in my poetry inspires me to start writing again, such a beautiful muse.
I love you.