What?

It amazes me the things that can cause the stop to happiness. 

I don't find myself to be a confrintational person but the drama

always seems to follow me like a curse. I try not to be a stubborn 

person & apologize for my mistakes but sometimes an alter-ego

with way too much pride takes over and leaves me stuck with

nothing to say but "I'm not wrong, &%$# you"

I pray for God to give me grace and patience, and heart like his son's.

Curves & Hips

I feel that at every point in a woman's life she has to "step her cookies up". In other words, don't let a dude or anybody else for that matter hold you back when you have so much potential to positively poison the world. Make your difference from where you stand, let us know who you are. Embrace the beauty that the make-up and coach bags hide. Let us know who you are.

A Double-Sided Poison

I swear, even if I tried to focus my attention else where it would be nothing but failure. He's changed my life, and after going through so much I couldn't imagine myself with any other. We both have our flaws but in the end we are perfectly connecting puzzle pieces in the jig-saw called "Life". As corny as you might find it, deep in my heart I know I have a bright future with this man. We both f%&$ up from time to time, but after the dust has settled I know I still don't belong anywhere else. I accredit love, with making my life more and less tolerable depending on the day. For reasons that vary, but... in all... if it weren't for love and God being love we would not exist.

"And I Wonder.."

I was up until about 6am last night, due to my thoughts practically ripping me to shreds. Such a horrible state to be in, chemicals in your brain not cooperating and producing images and words that shouldn't even be a factor. I'm thankful that sleep washed away most of the pain that it was causing and I'm happy to announce I'm able to finish therapy like I intended.

Babycakes & Motivation

Even though we put each other through our fair share of aggravation & stress, at the end of the day there's no where I'd rather be then in your arms. Three years strong approaching in April & I couldn't be more excited. 

In other news, looks like I'm getting a little motivation back in my life after a drought that almost did me in. I'm thankful. 

Maybe I can still make it without therapy, high hopes for the future!

The Universe Is Back In Order Captain

Thanking God, that my phone brushed against my leg yesterday morning or else I'd still be in the darkest room of my depression. Life still has its normal struggles BUT I now have more hope for myself. 

The only let down of the last few days was finding out that I won't be finishing my therapy. This filled me with fear and discourage at first but I plan to take what little I did get from my most recent two appointments and moving forward.

Keep me and my heart in your prayers. 

I Don't Have A Title

A few years ago I made a list of all the things I didn't like about myself. I hit high double digits and the list has done nothing but grown.

Now Playing: Please Don't Play This Song by Kid Cudi Featuring Mary J. Blige

Goodnight.